It’s the 1st Wednesday of the month again. That’s when I take part in Alex J. Cavanaugh’s Insecure Writer’s Support Group. Thank you to this month’s IWSG co-hosts for the August 7 posting of the IWSG: Renee Scattergood, Sadira Stone, Jacqui Murray, Tamara Narayan, and LG Keltner! This month, rather than answering the optional question of the month, I will be talking about starting over as a writer.
Since Dan died on April 26th, it has been really hard for me to find the “on” button. Finding time to write in the midst of starting over has been difficult. There have been a few days here and there when there were holes in my schedule and I could spend more time on my laptop doing things that weren’t related to insurance appeals, or other time-consuming endeavors. But then, it became difficult to write. For the first time, I really felt like I had writer’s block. My concentration was terrible and my memory seemed to malfunction on a regular basis.
It feels like along with losing my husband, I have lost the one way I could express myself.
I went from being a writer to being a widow who used to write.
I knew that I would be starting over without Dan, but I never thought it would be this hard on my writing. In fact, I always thought that writing would be integral to my healing as I was starting over.
Light in the Darkness
I am finding glimpses of the goals that I was pursuing before Dan got extremely sick. I like to have different projects in process, which reflect different aspects of my creative process; writing, editing, formatting, and publishing. Currently, I am working on the following projects:
- I’m preparing an updated, revised edition of Facing Cancer as a Friend. I will be getting a proof copy this week.
- I’ve also been working on Facing Cancer as a Caregiver. That involves a lot of heavy editing.
- I have even done a little bit of new writing, putting my thoughts on paper as they come to me. Mostly this has involved responding to grief.
My hope is that each IWSG Wednesday, I will feel a bit more like the writer I was, and even more like the writer I will be.
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I am an author, writer, and speaker and homeschooling mom of 3. Since doctors diagnosed my husband, Dan with stage IV lung cancer in 2012, I’ve focused my writing and speaking on helping cancer patients and their families advocate for themselves and live life to the fullest, in spite of their illness. My goal is to help people face cancer with grace. My books are available at Amazon.com:
I also blog about living with cancer at Facing Cancer with Grace.